Weeping for the children

We live in a perverse world. Media, movies, books, magazines are geared to reach the younger generation. Where are those who will cry out to the Lord on behalf on these precious young ones? My heart breaks at what I see penetrating the lives of our church kids. The enemy seeks to destroy our little ones. Will you stand in the gap with me and cry out to the Lord almighty for the salvation of his children? The harvest is ripe. Will you go? Lord use me. We must lay down all that we have before our King. We have been deceived. Listen to the voice of the Lord. Consume His Word. Dwell not on the lies of the enemy. Are you burdened for the salvation of God's children? His children are perishing, we must stand in the gap.

Striving to obey, wrestling with his calling, strengthened by his joy.
Janet

Happy Birthday Dad!!

Digging for fossels at the McWane Center

Playing in John Caedmons room

Yikes

I just discovered that Chase has our blog linked to www.chaseandsam.com I guess it would be helpful if we updated it more. But whose blog is this anyway?? I do most of the posts for Chase is tied up with all his many other computer related things he does. Maybe I'll write more. Maybe I'll tell all of Chase's secrets! That could be fun. Or maybe not. But for now I've got to get some sleep since I was up way too early this morning!

-Janet

It's been a while

4:30 am.

My heart pounds as I lay in bed. I toss and turn knowing I need to be sleeping. Fear and panic try to grip me. I am wrestling with inadequacy. I think I should be who I perceive others think I should be. Confusing, yes. The question thunders in my head: "What has God been showing you lately?" Guilt and condemnation come for my time with the Lord recently has not been consistent. What has been consistent is me seeing my sin. My filthy sin nature seems to be what is growing. I yield to the temptation to waste time on mindless TV. After long days of caring for my family, I am deceived to think TV is a way to unwind. What filth comes through that 'idol box'. Oh how it steals my precious time before bed and promotes that which is contrary to my Lord. I don't want to loose this season of my life wishing I had lived it differently. I don't want to be left out or left behind on hearing from my Lord. Lord, will you still reveal yourself to me? My desire is to be a woman of consistency. But somehow that escapes me. To rise early and meet with you Lord God. To daily receive your impartation. And then I fail and sleep late. Yes I can give many excuses like getting up with young toddlers, but an excuse is an excuse even if it is valid. And then I find myself grasping to not let my day get away from me. Hoping to sneak in some quiet time with the Lord. But my day unravels for I haven't planned well.

So I find my self wondering do I continue to whine or move on? There is so much I want to be able to do. Consistency in godly teaching of my children, keeping caught up with housework, and will I ever get the basement cleaned out??? Surely it is possible to do it all. Be a good mommy, wife, friend, daughter, sister, teacher. Lord grant me wisdom. I don't want to give in to fear or live trying to be someone else. I don't want to feel like I keep failing is so many things. I desire to excel in the most important position I have: being a child of God. Lord as I pursue you help me to let go that which is not as important and be consistent in who you have called me to be. I suppose wrestling is a part of life. I hope I will persevere in being a victorious fighter.

"Do not become weary in doing good for at the proper time you will reap a harvest if you do not give up." Galatians 6:9

Funny as I just performed spell check, I consistently misspelled consistent. Maybe I'm not as inconsistent as I thought. Or is it possible to be consistently inconsistent? ;)

-Janet