Confessions of a Pastors Wife

I have pondered posting this since I am a bit delirious with fever. Well, maybe delirious is a bit of an exageration but my temperature is 101.8 right now. How can a homeschooling mom of 4 survive with a fever??? I am not sure at this point. You may need to call and check on me to make sure I am still sane. :) But praise God for my sweet hubby who took all for kids to the park. Yes even the baby.

First, for all you guys out in blog world, my dear husband Chase now has a new job. He is now the pastor of a sweet church in Pinson, Agape Baptist. I am so excited about what God is doing there and doing in us. But can I tell you that this has caused anxiety in me?! I know I know.... anxiety is SIN! So in view of my current struggle, I thought I'd share a bit about myself. Here goes...

1. I am a sinner!
2. I do not have it all together... just in case by some strange way any of you thought that
3. I am not little miss domesticated. But I do aspire to becoming more like the Titus 2 woman
4. I like family meals together in theory and sometime in reality but ohhhhh the struggle to maintain peace at the table with four little ones.
5. Yes I have 4 children ages 7, 5, 4, and almost 10 months.
6. I love them dearly.
7. They often push me to frustration!
8. I don't always respond the right way.... yes I am sad to say that I have yelled at them.
9. I do spank them and believe the in biblical way of training ... but that is for another post.
10. I homeschool my children.
11. I do NOT wear long blue denim jumpers.
12. My kids have pleanty of socilation time.
13. I dearly love and respect my husband!!! But I do not always agree with him and yes we sometimes fuss. ;)
14. I love our new church but find myself retreating into my days as an introvert. :(
15. I love deep relationships with friends and value relationships.
16. I like to be friendly but sometimes have to push myself to be.
17. I love to read and write and blog when I can.
18. I LOVE JESUS but do struggle with sin.
19. I am NOT handling stress well lately.
20. I long to live a victorous life in Christ and not be so buffered by the storms of life.
21. My house is a wreck right now.
22. Most of you know that laundry is NOT my strength.
23. I would rather hang out with friends and children outside that clean my filthy house.
24. I will be inside a bit more the next 2 weeks .... my 7 year old is having her tonsils and adnoids out and removing a growth in her ear.
25. Her surgery is Wed May 14. PLEASE PRAY for her and for her recovery.
26. There is mold growing in my bathroom. Yes that IS embarassing. Anybody want to come clean for me? Ha ha. Just kidding.
27. I love snuggling up on the couch with my kids and reading to them.
28. I love seeing them learn new things.
29. I love talking with my husband at night.
30. I have allregies.
31. Most of the rest of our family has asthma.
32. My baby is currenty on a nursing strike. Ouch!! I think she may have weaned herself. But I am still trying to nurse her.
33. I like to nurse my babies for a year.
34. Apparantly this will not work for my youngest.
35. I don't know if we will have any more kids. Maybe yes, maybe no. But probably yes and I have no idea when. Hopefully for my sanity it will be a while. But only God knows His plan.
36. I like talking about the sovereignty of God.
37. I have never had a child without meds. I don't want that award.
38. I love to pray corporately. There is power in prayer.
39. I love pizza.
40. I don't always like to cook.
41. I want our family to eat healthier and want to learn how to do so.
42. We dont always eat well.
43. We LOVE cereal.
44. I uesd to run alot. Now all my running is from chasing my children.
44. I want to run again.
45. I would love to run a marathon.
46. I like making new friends.
47. I do not always answer my phone. Please leave a message and I will call you back when it is not as busy around here.
48. I love chocolate!!!
49. I don't feel good now.
50. I need some chocolate.